It's a Small Small World!!!

Found out this morning just how small this world really is! This morning I discovered that my sons' have a birth cousin who goes to their school. How did I discover that you might ask? Their birth aunt recognized my oldest son Boogy when I was walking him to his class this morning...The first thing she said was I am going to tell his dad I saw him...ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now their whole birth family is going to know that they are there!!!
I AM NOT A HAPPY CAMPER!!!

I don't want them showing up their to that school trying to see my kids. I still send updates/pics, but I'm still not allowing visits...Poor B was looking all bewildered this morning when we were bombarded by his birth aunt. Ya'll know the struggles I have a had with this child...He is finally stable and not having everyday abandonment issues. Who knows what seeing them will do....

I've already notified the school and teachers etc... .. Lord give me strength!

Anyway, I though I would share these random goodies of the kiddos

Boogy's 5th Bday

Well it's been a minute since I wrote, but Boogy is now 5 y/o can you believe that! Anyway pics are below

Unreciprocated Love

Have you ever loved someone literally with everything in you & no matter what you did they didn't feel the same. I mean no reciprocation whatsoever & at the very best mere tolerance bc u have something they want. But despite the lack of... reciprocation, your love for the person never decreases. In those moments how did you feel? I can imagine God feels the same way all the time.That's how I feel right now...

So Darn Cute

Look at B, D, & CT..right after they first came home...With a lil splash of my nephew thrown in...

This one's my favorite..look @ those lips...

Unexplainable Feelings

I was just looking @ the pics below on the blog of all the siblings and as I looked @ B...I immediately thought of him as Me AND someone else's kid.....As in I know that there is some part of him that will always belong to someone else.....

But when I looked @ D...I immediately thought: HE IS MINE...ALL MINE.....AND ONLY MINE!!!!!!

I'm not sure if it is because B actually knows and remembers his birth family and D never knew them and never lived w/ her or what.....

I KNOW.. Thanks for listening to my random thoughts